Isn't Happening - Ciara06

This isn't happening…it can't be I'm only 18…I've haven't gone to collage yet, I've just started my first job…no…no this is only a bad dream, that's all I'll wake up and be in my bed and have a text from my girlfriend. Yeah that's it.
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     Oh god…this isn't a bad dream…it’s a real nightmare. Why? Why did you do this to me? What did I do to you? Nothing! I didn't do anything! I was just walking to my car from my job. That's all.
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     Why does my arm hurt so bad…oh god…you cut off my tattoo! Is that it? You hated who I am and decided to do this and cut off my tattoo? Does that make you feel all powerful? Does it make you feel like a real man? You're not! I can't believe this…why? I have so much I need to do. I have to graduate from college and go on to create the greatest sets in the history of theater, or at least in the history of the local theater. I have to give my girlfriend our 1 year anniversary gift. It's in a few days and I have to give it to her…it's a ring that my mother gave to me before she died. I have to…but how can I? My dad needs help, needs someone to take care of him, why did you do this? I had so much I had to do, wanted to do! Why did you do this?
     Because you saw my tattoo? Because you heard me joking with my friend?
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     You killed me because I'm gay!
     I never did anything to you!
     I don't even know you!
     You killed me for something I can't change…something I didn't want to change because I was happy. I have to pay this price for being happy? No…no I can't be…I don't want to be…no please…